Longlisted for the UKLA Book Awards 2021 | Shortlisted for the Costa Children's Book Award 2019
Empathetic, insightful and buzzing with drama, the brilliant Jenny Downham has done it again in this vital, true-to-life treasure about a young woman’s struggle to stand up to her bully-boy stepfather.
“She threw things and slammed things and swore. She was clumsy and rude and had no friends. Her teachers thought her dim-witted. Her family despaired.” On the verge of turning sixteen, Lexi is a firework of frustration. Her furious outbursts are getting worse now John, her soon-to-be-stepdad, has taken over their family home, and his son – Lexi’s best friend (and long-time crush…) – has moved away to uni. On top of that, her younger half-sister is John’s favoured child, while she’s blamed for everything that goes wrong, including - most viciously of all - what happened to her beloved granddad. It’s no coincidence that the intensification of Lexi’s rage coincides with John’s increasingly coercive behaviour. Thanks to his constant criticism and angry desire to have everything exactly how he likes it, Lexi can see that her mum has become a shadow of herself. Trapped in this unbearable situation – one in which no one listens or believes her - what else can Lexi do but kick out?
Interwoven with fairy tale motifs that combine to create a satisfying whole at the novel’s heartrending climax, this is a brilliantly exacting exposé of coercive control and emotional abuse, and a powerful portrayal of a young woman’s refusal to give in. Lexy is a dazzlingly-created character that readers will root for and empathise with. Her battle to break the abuse elicits much compassion and sympathetic fury, while her irrepressible wit provokes plenty of laughs.
Lexi's angry. And it's getting worse. If only she could stop losing her temper, her step-father would accept her, her mum would love her again, and her step-brother would return her feelings. She wants these things so badly, she tries to push her fury down.But it isn't easy. Her rage is there for a reason. And if she stays quiet - she might just lose herself . . .
“One of the best YAs I have EVER READ. Full of feminist righteousness, this is a book I wish I had read when I was 16” - Charlotte Eyre, The Bookseller
“burns with a fury and fire” - Helen Boyle, WRD EXTRA
“brilliantly handled. I sobbed.”- Kate Morris Double, Book Box Club
Praise for Jenny Downham’s writing:
‘stunningly told’ The Times
‘life-affirming’ Daily Mail
‘powerful stuff’ Fabulous Magazine
‘stunning’ BuzzFeed
‘poignant’ The Sun
‘a star name in UK YA' The Bookseller
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About Jenny Downham
Jenny Downham was our Guest Editor in January 2010. Click here to see the books she chose.
Jenny Downham was an actress for many years before concentrating on her writing full-time. She lives in London with her two sons. Her book Before I Die was critically acclaimed and was short listed for the 2007 Guardian Award and the 2008 Lancashire Children's Book of the Year, nominated for the 2008 Carnegie Medal and the 2008 Booktrust Teenage Prize, and won the 2008 Branford Boase Award. It was also adapted for film and released in 2012 titled Now Is Good, starring Dakota Fanning and Jeremy Irvine. Jenny's second novel, You Against Me, won the Waterstones Children’s Book Prize, and her third novel, Unbecoming, was shortlisted for the YA Book Prize.
Get to know Jenny more by watching her 30 second interview.